Plaid Ponderings: Thoughts of a Lezz

I may want to follow you.

    unknowablewoman replied to your post: Would you rather sneeze a fish everytime you met a new person or drink someone else’s urine for a year?

lolwut. usually i ask these types of questions but this one isn’t me. i’m jealous of anon’s creativity.

Hahaha this was my initial reaction to. 

I have to do weekly updates about the news and politics that are happening over there.

It’d be pretty awesome to have a citizen’s point of view…

Let me know in my ask box! 

Thanks!

scarsaretoodeep replied to your post: Okay, seriously! You MUST be mind controlled to think for yourself! How dare you not blindly follow something that is complete crap? hahahaha

and you blindly follow the idea there is some super secret society running the world and destroying our brains with tv and music. what exactly is the difference in that and someone watching tv and getting emotional?

These past few days have proven to me, yet again, that this is not a good environment for me to be in. Being treated like shit, ignored, and having my wants and feeling being made light of, is not good for me.

It’s literally killing the person I’ve built myself back up to be. 

Contemplating suicide and crying myself to sleep is not how I want my life to be. 

I’m not going to be running away. I’m moving on.

I need to move. As soon as this semester is over. I need to be out of this house. I need to be away from my family, because everything that I mentioned yesterday is what I’m feeling and going through daily. I don’t mention it a lot or often because I don’t like to feel as though I’m complaining too much and I don’t want to be that “depressed lesbian chick on Tumblr”. Because that’s not who I am. Which is probably what got me this far because I never voice when I’m hurting because I feel like I’m bothering everyone when I do.

So I need help. 

I’m not talking about money, although if you want to do that it’s fine.

I’m talking about helping me move out. I need you guys to send me things that I need to know about abruptly moving. I need like a list of things to make sure I do so that when I move out I’m not just lost and have a need to come back here.

Coming back here is not an option.

So please, anything that you guys can give me with this will really help a lot. 

Thanks!

xoxo

Jay

Then I’ll record my video and post it tomorrow.

Now come on.

Ask me some questions.

I know you have them.

They can be totally random….like..what’s my favorite mythical creature.

Or they can totally be non-random….like…what’s my favorite song.

You choose. 

I’ll answer.

GO.

Seriously. I’ve been wondering this for a week.

Before they took away the Directory, it made sense that people would find me.

Because I was listed.

But now with this Explore thing….I just don’t see it.

How did you guys find me?? Because I’ve gained…about 40 new followers since they switched to ‘Explore’.

Which is insane.

I set up a Paypall account just so all of you know.

I meant to post about it a few days ago.

I set it up so that people can donate whatever they want to a LGBT organization. It’s on my page. I’m still trying to decide which organization the money will eventually go to.

100% of it though will go to the organization. 

I’m doing this because I give what I can but I want to give more. I want to do something more for these kids. 

The two organizations that I’m looking at are The Trevor Project and The Ali Forney Center.

I’m leaning more towards The Trevor Project just because their work is extremely amazing and near and dear to my heart. But then Ali Forney is an almost unheard of organization and the cause of homeless LGBT teens doesn’t get enough coverage as it is. I might just split the money 50/50 and make a dual donation.

Just wanted to let you guys know why I had the link on my page!

<3

Jay

No this has nothing to do with my over stressed and exhausted schedule of today.

But

I want one. I want the outline of a human heart. 

For a tattoo.

It’ll go along with something else.

I’ve tried drawing it. But I keep getting frustrated and it’s not working the way I want it to.

So.

The artists in my life.

Want to draw me one?

I’ll love you forever!!

:D

layyitdown:

teddycsmoove:

kicksnchicks:

meganrhianne:

kingmadedemeanor:

letsstayclassy:

any kind please

• anon
• sexual
• hey whats up
• advice
• random
• tell me about yourself
• favorite bands
• why you follow me
• …anything

before i go to sleep

foreeeeeealz

get at it.

Dont be scared hmu

but will i get any? no

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